Ricky Martin’s awkward interview with Barbara Walters over 20 years in the past left him feeling a bit loco, he revealed this week.
The Latin crooner graced People magazine’s annual Pride cover in a contemporary white button-down and what have to be the toughest working pair of denims in Hollywood.
But inside, Martin, 49, revealed extra than simply his seemingly ageless physique — divulging the suits and begins that led to the previous youngster star of boy group Menudo lastly popping out about his sexuality.
His oft-rumored relationship standing got here to a personal tipping level for Martin throughout an interview with Walters in 2000, a year after Martin had established himself as one of many few Latin stars to interrupt into the American pop music panorama, as his debut single “Livin’ La Vida Loca” thrived at No. 1 on the Billboard Hot 100 for 5 weeks in 1999.
“Sexuality is a complicated thing,” he instructed People. “It’s not black and white. It’s filled with colors. When I was dating women, I was in love with women. It felt right, it felt beautiful. You can’t fake chemistry — the chemistry was there with them. I wasn’t misleading anyone.”
Martin had a public historical past of relationship ladies — “Lots of women,” he mentioned — although privately he was identified to see males on the time.
Walters goaded him to cop to the gossip: “You could stop these rumors,” she mentioned. “You could say, ‘Yes I am gay or no I’m not.’ ” Cooly, Martin responded, “I just don’t feel like it.”
It would take one other 10 years for the “She Bangs” singer to open up. And the anguish he felt at that second with the long-lasting journalist has caught with him, he instructed People.
“When she dropped the question, I felt violated because I was just not ready to come out. I was very afraid,” he mentioned. “There’s a little PTSD with that.”
When requested if he needs he’d dealt with the question in another way, Martin mused, “Well, maybe I would have come out in that interview. It would’ve been great because when I came out, it just felt amazing. When it comes to my sexuality, when it comes to who I am, I want to talk about what I’m made of, about everything that I am. Because if you hide it, it’s a life-or-death situation.”
For her half, Walters, now retired from broadcasting at 91, has additionally shared regrets over how their speak performed out.
“I pushed Ricky Martin very hard to admit if he was gay or not, and the way he refused to do it made everyone decide that he was,” she told the Toronto Star in 2010. “A lot of people say that destroyed his career, and when I think back on it now, I feel it was an inappropriate question.”
Now dwelling his reality with husband Jwan Yosef and their 4 youngsters, Martin hopes he could be somebody LGBTQ youngsters “can look up to,” he mentioned, and reiterated that sexuality reveals itself at a distinct tempo for everybody.
“You can’t force someone to come out,” he mentioned, and provided a metaphor: “If you have an egg and you open it from the outside, only death comes out. But if the egg opens up from the inside, life comes out.”